[Alcuin's eyes widen in shock, and for a long, dreadful moment, he is still. And silent.]
[He could have them locked away. He wouldn't have to remember. Wouldn't have to relive everything every time he set foot on the streets! He could be free of it till they got back, and he knows Armin could do it in such a way that he would remember why they were shut up. He might be able to actually breathe and move and investigate the current happenings without problems.]
[The temptation is terrible.]
[But his eyes close and he moans, low and forlorn.]
No... no, I can't. I just can't. I am the only one to have faced Him. I-I can't... we need that knowledge available, and I won't know the details, that's the point, and my own need to know would not allow it to stand, and I would break it open... Elua help me, I want to. I want to be of use! But I can't. I can't take it. Ah gods...
[But he's been shocked out of hyperventillating, at least. He can speak again, if through shameful tears. It is better than it was five minutes ago.]
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[He could have them locked away. He wouldn't have to remember. Wouldn't have to relive everything every time he set foot on the streets! He could be free of it till they got back, and he knows Armin could do it in such a way that he would remember why they were shut up. He might be able to actually breathe and move and investigate the current happenings without problems.]
[The temptation is terrible.]
[But his eyes close and he moans, low and forlorn.]
No... no, I can't. I just can't. I am the only one to have faced Him. I-I can't... we need that knowledge available, and I won't know the details, that's the point, and my own need to know would not allow it to stand, and I would break it open... Elua help me, I want to. I want to be of use! But I can't. I can't take it. Ah gods...
[But he's been shocked out of hyperventillating, at least. He can speak again, if through shameful tears. It is better than it was five minutes ago.]