[It had bothered his alter-ego. Bothered him very much. He'd been attached to her, been weak that way, even though he had still done his job in the end.
[The event still bothers him, but more nebulously, and for mostly a different reason. Before that false life, he had never killed anyone. (He'd considered using the book to ensure Mikami would do as he'd predicted, but in the end had deemed the act unnecessary. He could win without it. And he had.) It's an unpleasant thing, he has decided.]
It is behind me, and not worth concern from either of us.
[He will not apologize, even if some vague part of him is sorry. It will surely pass, as all feelings do. No apology, genuine or otherwise, is even required here; it's more than obvious that Mai considers him the wronged party in this. She has forgiven it without his having to do anything.]
[Private]
[The event still bothers him, but more nebulously, and for mostly a different reason. Before that false life, he had never killed anyone. (He'd considered using the book to ensure Mikami would do as he'd predicted, but in the end had deemed the act unnecessary. He could win without it. And he had.) It's an unpleasant thing, he has decided.]
It is behind me, and not worth concern from either of us.
[He will not apologize, even if some vague part of him is sorry. It will surely pass, as all feelings do. No apology, genuine or otherwise, is even required here; it's more than obvious that Mai considers him the wronged party in this. She has forgiven it without his having to do anything.]