[ and, honestly, erwin is usually much better at that compartmentalization than he is now. he credits this lack of control mostly to the new influx of memories - of an erwin that wasn't necessarily as controlled, or controlled in a different manner.
it bothers him that he can recognize that about himself, but still feels the pull - the instinct - to remain disconnected. for now, at the very least. until he stops feeling that heat rise in his chest from just hearing levi's voice. until he can close his eyes without seeing him spread out on his bed. ]
Mine can be dealt with at a later time. [ that's a no, levi. don't make him actually say it.
at least until levi mentions needing to talk and erwin pauses, tenses, momentarily doesn't breathe. what is levi going to mention? is there something about the jaunt? it actually surprises (and in a way, impresses) erwin to think that levi would be alright with bringing it up so easily. ]
What is it?
[ because he sure as hell doesn't want to talk about it in person. ]
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it bothers him that he can recognize that about himself, but still feels the pull - the instinct - to remain disconnected. for now, at the very least. until he stops feeling that heat rise in his chest from just hearing levi's voice. until he can close his eyes without seeing him spread out on his bed. ]
Mine can be dealt with at a later time. [ that's a no, levi. don't make him actually say it.
at least until levi mentions needing to talk and erwin pauses, tenses, momentarily doesn't breathe. what is levi going to mention? is there something about the jaunt? it actually surprises (and in a way, impresses) erwin to think that levi would be alright with bringing it up so easily. ]
What is it?
[ because he sure as hell doesn't want to talk about it in person. ]