synopsychic | open broadcast

Um.. I'm sorry for announcing this inbetween everything else, but-- I wanted to make sure I wouldn't do it too late so that it'd be inconvenient for other people..

[ Yes, sorry for interrupting all your talk about PSYCHENet and Trumps and love confessions and god knows what else.. at least she's keeping it in theme, okay. ]

But as some of you already heard, Toshizou and I are going to get married during this Jaunt. [ And despite somewhat natural nervousness of but whAT IF IT'S INCONVENIENT FOR EVERYONE ELSE lingering in her tone, she does sound very happy. It's not hard to tell. Just some nervous happy jitters about it still, really. ] It'll be on the 11th, so.. if you want to come, you can..! But I understand that people are busy with more important things as well, so please don't feel obligated at all..

[ .. look, maybe it's not the best announcement, but it could've been worse. It could've been Toshizou "COME OR DON'T IDGAF SHIT DAMN PISS HELL" Hijikata saying it. Instead it's just lingered with Chizuru's constant need to put her own needs fifteen miles behind everyone else's. ]

I think PSYCHENet is going to officiate it, so it could also maybe be helpful for finding out more about this Jaunt. If people are wondering about that sort of thing instead, I mean.

In either case, thank you for listening..!

Flat | Top-Level Comments Only

[He'll give it a second, but if she takes too long in coming back down to earth, he'll - gently - ask:]

And?

[There's gotta be something more she really wants in all this that he can try to provide. let him make her dreams come true]

[ That "and" is exactly the difficult part.. Chizuru's just so unused to being allowed to ask things for herself at this point that she honest to god can't even think of anything. Not even when he prompts her. All she can think about when she imagines their perfect wedding is just that he's there, and all their friends, and.. that's about it.

She doesn't need anything big, after all, and she thinks looking really pretty is beyond her, anyway, and-- there's nothing else. ]

That's fine.. as long as we're happy, and everyone else is happy.. then that's enough.

[ Not like she knows she's driving literally half the Shinsengumi to drink right now.

Oops. ]

That's the important part.

[He was kind of hoping she'd at least offer up some more things he could do, like "make sure those chucklefucks decorate the shrine in her favorite color" or something...but this answer, honestly, is exactly what he expects of Chizuru. It's just how she is.

It's exactly what he loves about her.]

Then-- Toshizou, is there anything you want?

[ FLIPS THIS ISSUE AROUND ON HIM. ]

Like.. um.. the wedding kimono, what kind would you like to see.. [ She doesn't really care about what's the prettiest, after all - or, well, more like Chizuru would think anything is pretty, especially since she's not too used to girly clothes anymore. But what's important is that she wants to look pretty to him more than to anyone else. ]

You look good to me no matter what, but...

[You know, it's not like he's dissing the boy clothes - that was an act of necessity, and one that the Shinsengumi kind of imposed on her anyway; she'd already been disguising herself when they found her, but they're the ones who made it imperative for her to keep it.

And she still looks great like that, as far as he's concerned. Chizuru can do no wrong.

But.]

...you look really good in women's clothes. Seeing that again will be really... [No, he can't say some of the things he's thinking, people might hear this...] ...really nice.

[He has to behave in an open forum, okay, he can't go too romance novel about being on fire with desire or...shit, that rhymes, that's awful anyway!]

[ Lack of public poetry or not, it still seems to touch Chizuru regardless. For real. It's a good thing this is a mental conversation and all, since her face just went incredibly red at just hearing those words in her head.. ]

Is that so..

[ Of course she knows it's so. Hijikata wouldn't lie to her, or even really butter her up, but knowing those words are genuine just makes them all the more powerful. All the dokis are happening here right now, Chizuru's fuelling the entire Jaunt by herself. ]

In that case I have to make sure I won't disappoint you..!

You could never do that.

[Anything she does for him is going to make him fluttery, let's be real.]

E-- even so!

[ ~~even if he's whipped, more like.~~ ]

It's a very special occasion, so I really want it to be perfect this time.. [ Perfect for him though, don't misunderstand. She's still not asking anything for herself, nope. ]

It will be.

[Because it's Chizuru, ergo automatically perfect, because even her faults are endearing.]

Amazing.. [ And despite the tone being mental, it totally does sound amazed. ] It's like you're not nervous about this at all, Toshizou.. Although I guess it's to be expected from you.

[ Since her soon-to-be-hubby is the coolest!! guy!! ever!! ]

Don't know that I'd go that far, but...

[You can't just go around looking nervous! The troops lose heart.

Hijikata, this is a wedding, not a battlefield.]

[ Who are even supposed to be the troops in this case.. ]

No-- I'd definitely go that far! [ TOSHIZOU HIJIKATA DEFENSE SQUAD'S #1 MEMBER. RIGHT HERE. Nevermind that most of the defending involves defending Hijikata from putting himself down.. it's still a valid squad.. ]

You're so amazing in every situation.. I'm sure this won't be any different.

[Ah, of course. Can't even hint at putting himself down when she's around...

Which...isn't such a horrible thing, exactly. He can't help but smile.]

When you say it like that, how can I even think of letting you down?

Exactly.. you shouldn't even think about it.

[ It's said with a soft edge to it. It's not as if she means it in any threatening way or anything - by god, it's Chizuru, could she ever? - but she's just going along with his own mental tone, pressing some of her hair behind her ear. ]

For the wedding.. I'd like for your mind to only be filled with happy thoughts.

Do you really think I'm going to be able to think about anything but you, when we get there?

[And she is the happy thought of happy thoughts.]

[ What a charmer, Hijikata. ]

T.. that is a good thing, right..? [ Her hesitant tone and the blush she can feel on her cheeks probably hint to the fact that she does realise it's most likely a good thing - and a flustering thing because of it. ]

Why wouldn't it be?

[chizuru pls.]

.. Well..

[ She could make up quite a few reasons. Because, despite everything, there's still a part of her that feels like he deserves someone a little more mature, maybe, or someone prettier, or.. well, the best, no matter what that is.

But with the wedding right there on the horizon, it doesn't feel right to put herself down like that in regards to this. So-- ]

I guess that if you'd regret any of it, you would have said so by now.

Don't think I've ever had a problem calling them like I see them before now.

[And he's calling this one goddamned perfect, so relax, Chizuru.

You're all he wants.]

open broadcast

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject

no subject