My heart feels heavy

[rustyhonesty]

Korra's gone. Feliciano's gone, too. They... they're not here. Korra's bond is silent and Feli isn't answering any of my calls.

I'm so sorry.

[Jean sounds... not well. Or maybe he sounds more emotionless than he would normal. It's the after effect of Trojan weighting on him but also heavy grief. He feels heavy.]

... and I... converted some of you into Trojans which I... apologize. Matt, Naoya, Shiro, Felih and Gil. I was that Trojan, responsible for your viruses. RAA-7 is not to blame, he had no idea what was going on. I don't know where he got the virus himself, but it likely was with him when we arrived.

... if you need to punch me or talk with me, I'm going to have to ask you to wait. I need some time to just... curl up and feel safe. Feel like myself again. I'll talk through the network, sure, but let me just. Pull myself together.

I'm so sorry.

Comments

[unconventionalelf]

Jean...

Jean do you wish to speak to someone?

[ She means in person, but she'll let him open up here if he wants.]

I can go to you if you wish.

[rustyhonesty]

Right now I have what I need to cope... but thank you... I do want to see you in person later.

[Right now he just needs to focus on Mikasa and her only. That's the best way for him to get through this.]

I just need time to recover. I wasn't stuck with an evil overlay, but... something about it hit close home.

[unconventionalelf]

I understand, and I will be here for you when you wish to speak.

[rustyhonesty]

Thank you, Tal.

Want to tell me about what you did for the Walkabout? At least, I assume you were there.

[unconventionalelf]

We were in a cold place of ice and snow. The men in the dark suits were there, as was a man named 'sanda claws'. Or something close. The elves were more like tinker gmomes...

Though I had a lot of fun. And the dancing lights in the sky were beautiful.

[rustyhonesty]

Again with those guys... they weren't the same right?

Dancing lights? The northern lights? Korra sometimes talked about them...

[unconventionalelf]

They were, but I managed to stay away from them this time. Mostly hid in the woods or stayed sledding. That was fun, we don't use sleds as recreation back home.

Yes, that is what they were called. They were beautiful, I have never seen anything like it before then. There are stories about it further north, but I rarely left the forests.

[rustyhonesty]

At least you were safe, then. Sounds like the rest of the trip was relaxing...

[unconventionalelf]

Reasonably safe. It was quite fun though. I wish you could have been there.

[rustyhonesty]

... yeah. It would have been fun.

[unconventionalelf]

Well, if we can make a hill of snow here, we'll have to make sleds. If for nothing else some fun to forget things for a little while.

[rustyhonesty]

That would be fun. I suppose we could make a room that fits a winter theme.

[unconventionalelf]

Maybe... maybe others would with to help at some point.

[rustyhonesty]

Yeah, maybe.