[Video]// filtered from Rose

[neverfeltthatway]

I have a list of people who have gone out of ambit.

It's a long list this time - I didn't manage to get one before the last jaunt, with so many people appearing and disappearing so quickly, so this is going back a few months. And it won't include the names of people who were only here last liminal, because I definitely didn't meet all of them.

Jean Otus, Ringabel, Pod, Sabetha, Madoka, Beatrice Portinari, Inigo, Captain Marvelous, Shinji Ikari, Dru'sil, Kinji, Yakumo, Thace, Utsusemimaru, Nero, Kazuma, Imriel, Drake, Taleenya, Battler, Keith, Xena, Sakuya, Dakki, Chie, Bakura, Kitty. And - a-and Alcuin.

[He can't quite keep a straight face when he says Alcuin's name, even though he'd had time to prepare - in fact, he barely managed to say it at all. The grief was just too much.]

...I'm sorry.

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[neverfeltthatway]

It's okay. Just... just not right away.

[rustyhonesty]

Yeah, of course not. It's not like I feel like painting right now anyway.

But seriously, you don't need to.

[neverfeltthatway]

It's no worse than this already is. Just... just a little depressing.

There will be times I won't be feeling it as keenly.

[rustyhonesty]

It is, but... for me it's a way to cope I guess. Painting them. Memorizing what they look like. So I won't forget.

[There's no way he'd forget some of the faces, but... there was no 'no way' while Traveling. He could just forget.]

[neverfeltthatway]

I - I kinda figured. And it, it's good to have a record. One that can't just be erased.

['Just forgetting' has been on Armin's mind, too, since he's actually gone through it.]

[rustyhonesty]

[The problem is, even paintings could disappear, but he's not gonna make this even sadder by saying that.]

Mmh. It's the reason the place exists.

[neverfeltthatway]

Of course.

[He takes a slow breath, keeping his voice steady and even.]