synopsychic | Like a stumbling ghost, I haunt these halls

Hi? Shit, I don't think I've ever been the one to start a mass psychic conversation. I'm more used to tuning out any voices in my head.

Anyway! This is Thorne, who some of you guys probably have met on the jaunt as Chouko, Princess Noriko-hime's attendant, and I'm dead! And in liminal space. Which I guess is traditional or something, I don't know. The Mantis killed me. He's, um, a killer cyborg with an inexplicable insectile theme. Well, okay, not inexplicable, if you ever knew Dr Wärring, which technically I never did, but Chouko did and the stuff in her memories actually reminded me a bit of this guy named Oda that my old, uh, boss used to be friends with and shit, I'm getting off-topic.

Right. So yeah, the Mantis killed me--he's Hajime, by the way, the Donalds are really running with that bug dude theme with him--but he's probably only after people who used to be with these guys called Vexatior--your basic shadowy organization who wanted to take over the world--so uh, if any of you guys remember having any ties to them, take care, okay? The only person I know who does is Min--I mean, I guess his name is Armin out of Jaunt--and the Mantis already spared him once due to age, but he's older than he was then and so, uh, if people could keep an eye on him and maybe make him stop being an idiot and wear a goddamn mask already that would be much appreciated. And try to help Noriko--Naoto--too? She's gonna be worried when she realizes I'm gone.

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Joscelin? Can you make it back to Liminal Space? I think I need your help with something.

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[Well, she's not actually supposed to be. Which is just as well, really, or they'd be seriously boned back where she comes from.

Like, even more boned than they already are.]

... it's not like I was ever any good with, like, the bow and arrow at summer camp. And shooting shit is, like, an important part of her job?

I was so sure that was why he embraced me... but if it's not, then why? I must be like this for something, right? It can't just be for nothing.

Can it?

[...sigh.] Thorne, how old were you when you became a ghoul?

... twenty-three.

And look, if you'd been living at home with your folks for over a year because there are no jobs beside shit retail work when all you have is a B.A. in English and the rent in Santa Carla is completely batshit--a grand a month for a studio apartment, can you fucking believe that shit?--and suddenly you were able to land a job that wasn't retail and was something you'd always found cool, namely science, and the pay was good enough to actually move out and get that apartment downtown you always wanted, you'd have drank the mystery serum too.

That's not why I asked. [though it does explain some things.] I was 26 when I was turned. I'd been a cop ever since I finished my stint at community college. Might not have been a hell of a lot older than you, but in my line of work? We figured out pretty damn quick that there's not some grand mystical reason behind everything.

So you think I was turned for nothing. But if it was for nothing, then why did Dr B think it was so important?

Look, I don't know your Dr. B, so I can only guess. Maybe he thought you were at first, and then realized after that you didn't fit and didn't want to admit he was wrong. Maybe there was some other agenda tied in there that you didn't get to. Fuck, maybe he's just a goddamn liar who just wanted a new vampire to boss around.

[... it's probably a good thing she still hasn't turned the whole blush of life thing back on, because otherwise she'd probably be crying by now.]

... I always was a really good minion... fuck.

He did... he did honestly like me, though. Like, I think he cared about me as much as we're capable of it. Which isn't much anymore, I know, but... shit.

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[that's good because Melissa is also pretty shit at comforting people when she's telling her version of the truth.]

If you think so, I'm not gonna argue with you. [Even though she does kind of doubt it.] Sorry, kid. I wish I had better and or more comforting news for you.

... kid? You're not that much older than me.

He did like me, though. Some people fuck their ghouls up. They're like, huge dicks to them, because they can be. And he wasn't a huge dick to me.

[He totally fucked you up, Thorne. Being Embraced fucked you up. That's part of being a vampire.]

Doesn't matter. [she'll call you kid if she damn well pleases.]

Then he did something halfway decent. [yeah she's still not forgiving him for the rest of the bullshit.]

I loved him. Back when I was a ghoul. And even afterwards, sort of. He was-- everything.

[.....she is hella judging your taste right now, but she supposes that wasn't really your fault.]

Well, we've got another chance here. Maybe you can find a new meaning.

[To be fair, she wasn't really given a choice not to. That's how ghouls work.]

Yeah. Maybe. Doing the Traveler thing, that has to mean something, right?

... hey. Uh. Tell me if I'm being too personal, but have you ever slept with anyone you ate?

You mean my normal method of getting blood? [that would be a yes.]

Oh.

Right. Yeah. That's a pretty normal thing to do. I hadn't before, but, like, it's normal.

But, like, I mean, afterwards.

What about afterwards? [you clearly just don't understand one night stands the way she does.]

Like, say, you fed from someone who knew what you were doing to them because they were a truly good person who wanted to help you. And then, like, you ended up sleeping with them because they didn't believe you about the bite being sexy and they, like, trusted in their angel god to protect them from the sexiness and it didn't work.

...This is an oddly specific problem that I can honestly say I've never come across.

Yeah.

I kind of thought so.

[you are terrible at deflecting.]

I assume he's being weird about it now?

Yeah. Basically.

[Possibly he's not the only one being weird about it.]

... it was like stupid good too. Like, better than eating.

It fucked me up a bit.

Good sex fucked you up.

[you are a very strange woman.]

Yeah. I mean. It made me feel like a real girl for a while. And then I remembered I'm not.

...Ah. [yeah that makes more sense.] And now you two are avoiding each other like the plague?

[... look, she had some very important things she had to get done but yes, that is in some degree accurate.]

Things are hella awkward anyway.

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