My heart feels heavy

[rustyhonesty]

Korra's gone. Feliciano's gone, too. They... they're not here. Korra's bond is silent and Feli isn't answering any of my calls.

I'm so sorry.

[Jean sounds... not well. Or maybe he sounds more emotionless than he would normal. It's the after effect of Trojan weighting on him but also heavy grief. He feels heavy.]

... and I... converted some of you into Trojans which I... apologize. Matt, Naoya, Shiro, Felih and Gil. I was that Trojan, responsible for your viruses. RAA-7 is not to blame, he had no idea what was going on. I don't know where he got the virus himself, but it likely was with him when we arrived.

... if you need to punch me or talk with me, I'm going to have to ask you to wait. I need some time to just... curl up and feel safe. Feel like myself again. I'll talk through the network, sure, but let me just. Pull myself together.

I'm so sorry.

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[rustyhonesty]

[And Jean's too tired to actually be grumpy at Sansa. Not now. Not likely for a while.]

I know, but I'm closest to offer when they couldn't hit the Trojan back there. Least I can do is offer a way to vent their frustrations.

[canbebrave]

That’s barbaric. And idiotic.


I’m sorry about your friends.

[rustyhonesty]

It's a way to cope. And it's not like it's meant to hurt me badly...

[Even if he'd take that too, but that's what healing spells are for.]


... yeah. I'll miss them a lot.

[canbebrave]

[It’s a bad way to cope, she wants to tell him- but doesn’t. ]

Perhaps they will return. I did.

[rustyhonesty]

I really hope they will. Plenty of people have returned back and most of them with memories. There's a good chance...

[canbebrave]

I’ll pray to the Mother for their safe return. [They deserve that much. Her feelings about Jean aside.]

[rustyhonesty]

[Praying is still so unknown to him as a concept, but he gets it's important for some.]

... thank you.