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synopsychic2015-11-05 03:17 am
rustyhonesty) wrote in synopsychic2015-11-05 03:17 am
Open broadcast | backdated to the first day of second liminal
This is my first time actually trying to make a message through the whole network... hopefully this will work.
[Jean sounds rather exhausted as he talks. While he had been away from the dungeon for some time, he still hasn't really recovered completely. Not with all the damn emotions and thoughts he had to process. Now he had finally sorted out the most important things so he was ready to talk with others to apologize or just explain.]
To anyone who interacted with Jan Wirths at the previous Jaunt. If there's something you need to talk to me about with that, I'm at workshop for most of the time. I know there were some things that he did that were rather fucked up.
[That's actually an understatement, at least in Jean's mind.]
... and well, if someone wants to tell me a bit more about Persona's, I would appreciate it. Now that I've rested I might understand any explanations a bit better.
And then things that happened in the dungeon... I'm ready to talk about them now.
[He's really been avoiding everyone for some time now. Especially one called Eren Jaeger, who he heard perfectly well over the network the other day. He almost adds "Jaeger stay out or I'll feel worse" but
1) Mikasa wouldn't like that
2) Eren would yell at him
3) Headache guaranteed
So he just leaves this as this.]
(ooc: Jean is back from his dungeon and can be found mostly from the workshop!)
[Jean sounds rather exhausted as he talks. While he had been away from the dungeon for some time, he still hasn't really recovered completely. Not with all the damn emotions and thoughts he had to process. Now he had finally sorted out the most important things so he was ready to talk with others to apologize or just explain.]
To anyone who interacted with Jan Wirths at the previous Jaunt. If there's something you need to talk to me about with that, I'm at workshop for most of the time. I know there were some things that he did that were rather fucked up.
[That's actually an understatement, at least in Jean's mind.]
... and well, if someone wants to tell me a bit more about Persona's, I would appreciate it. Now that I've rested I might understand any explanations a bit better.
And then things that happened in the dungeon... I'm ready to talk about them now.
[He's really been avoiding everyone for some time now. Especially one called Eren Jaeger, who he heard perfectly well over the network the other day. He almost adds "Jaeger stay out or I'll feel worse" but
1) Mikasa wouldn't like that
2) Eren would yell at him
3) Headache guaranteed
So he just leaves this as this.]
(ooc: Jean is back from his dungeon and can be found mostly from the workshop!)
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[She sounds calm as ever saying that. Eren is her LIFE!
And after everything recently-ish back home, she sure as fuck isn't going to let anyone or anything come between them.
Though hurting a (close) friend with all these words hurts but as if she's going to let it show. Much. Maybe he knows her well enough to realize it, maybe it will take him a while or maybe he doesn't know it but it's not like this is easy. Putting her priorities in order is easy. Rejecting him? Far from easy. Especially because she's had time to think about this before she even came to this room and they really have come closer here too. He is someone she can call a close friend back home too but well, even more here.
Ow, that smile kind of hurts but well, anything would probably hurt... Sorry you confessed to a girl, who is horrible at this and completely devoted to someone else and not even brave enough to ever tell Eren about her feelings for him. More words? Oh good, she's not losing friendship because of this. She wouldn't want that.]
Good. I'd never want that to change.
[
So please be her friend forever!!Weird, or not, she almost feels like hugging him or something. GOOD THING that the situation is way too awkward for that, though she could also do it anyway because fuck awkwardness but ... His next words made the girl shake her head.]Don't worry about it, it's fine. I'm still really glad, that you're here...
[Does she mind leaving him alone now? She nods!! Wait no, is that a yes I mind and I'm not leaving anywhere? She shakes her head almost in the middle of a nod... aaaaaaaaand then this is too weird, as much as she'd like to do something else ( hug? pet head? ) she juuuuuust rushes out of the door and closes it right behind her.
Also it wouldn't be polite to stay right behind the door after all that and maybe she'd just rush back in if she stayed there -- fffff, complicated feelings are weird!!! So she just goes away from the door too, consideres going to her own for a moment but... No, she's just going to collect herself, dry some tears away from her eyes as soon as she notices them and go back to Eren. Who knows what kind of trouble he's getting into while Mikasa is not with him?!]
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Why did he say all those things when he knew it would just hurt in the end? Of course it would hurt. Eren was here again. Even if he weren't... it still would have hurt. There's no way Mikasa's feelings would change for Jean.
That's the truth he needed to live with.]