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backdated to the day after the shift from clonetemple mountain to basketballroom

Guys! Guys, there's a Titan here! I think it's a Titan? He's huge and naked and hanging crepe paper from the chandelier and I don't think he's noticed me yet.

I'm gonna try to fly up and stab him. Survey dudes, please give me back-up, he's fucking terrifying.

[OOC: Anyone who wants can handwave seeing Eren in Titan shifted form trying to help decorate the basket ballroom. Or even doing his shift. Sadly, Thorne missed the shift happening which is why this.]

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How is that my fault!? Maybe I'd know if one of you would bother to tell me anything! I don't know what I did to make her so mad at me but dammit, I haven't done it yet! How does pushing me away have anything to do with caring about me!?

SHE'S NOT MAD AT YOU, YOU IDIOT! That's not why she's acting like this! She's hurt because she can't talk to you the way she used to! Get it?! She wants to be honest, but she can't!

BUT WHY CAN'T SHE!? [He's yelling as loud as he possibly can now, voice cracking a little in desperation.] Maybe if one of you would at least tell me that much it wouldn't feel like you're both just blowing me off! I'd expect that from you, but not her!

HOW IS KEEPING SHIT FROM ME SUPPOSED TO HELP ANYTHING!?

[It takes a bit longer to reply to this because Jean has to make sure this conversation turns into a Private Yelling Fest (tm) after Armin contacted him. Now only they get to enjoy the yelling competition of minds.]

BECAUSE IT WOULD BE BAD FOR YOU! You're not ready for some of the information we know! It's for your own good! Not that I care about what's good for you or not, but I care about Mikasa who cares about you!

[Just to make sure he doesn't get the wrong idea.]

[Thankfully, the pause let Eren reconsider what he was doing and he was already kicking himself for yelling like that over the entire Network, automatically responding in a Private connection. He'd done one more thing to make everyone here hate him, good job. It's not like he'd even care if things here were like how they were back at the walls. But everything is different now and pushing the rest of the world away like he's used to now meant pushing Armin away too.]

[He's really starting to wish he knew how to change, honestly. But like hell would he admit anything of the like to Jean.]

So how the FUCK is this any better than what's happening now!? How is keeping me in the dark supposed to help if more people from my future show up and I have no idea what's going on? I am a soldier! I've had to learn a lot of things that were bad for me! I've had to do a lot of things that were bad for me! Why is this so much worse!? Are there even more traitors and she's worried about telling me who, is that it!?

I can't tell you the details on why so stop fucking asking! Instead, why don't you trust Mikasa on this?! She knows you better than anyone here so she knows when she can speak and can't!

[He takes a deep breathe before adding; ]

You think she'd do this if she didn't have to? If you think that you're more of an idiot than I thought, Jaeger. She... [Hesitation. Gritting his teeth.] She loves you, you idiot. She wouldn't keep things for you if she had a choice.

Edited 2016-01-15 05:12 (UTC)

You just don't understand, dammit!

[His entire family was falling apart around him. Of course, Jean had no reason to care about that, now did he?]

[...Also, even with Jean spelling things out for him like that? This idiot right here somehow still manages to miss the meaning of what Jean's really saying there. He sighs, his tone suddenly becoming much quieter, but still immensely frustrated.]

Of course she does. And I love her. We're family. [Eren you dumbass that's not what he meant.] We're... We were a family. Now, I don't...

[Wait, why was he telling Jean this? Because with both of his best friends acting so weird and the Captain missing there suddenly wasn't anyone else to tell? Except this is Jean. He'd probably be better off yelling at his reflection in the mirror ~~again~~ than spilling his guts to Jean like this.]

[Suddenly, the Sensory Livestreaming cuts off and Eren switches to just his thoughts. They were still very loud thoughts, granted, but thought alone couldn't carry the kind of force that voice could.] Fine. Whatever. If this is what she really wants, then I hope she's happy. Now why don't you go talk future bullshit with her and leave me the hell alone.

[Oh, boy. This wasn't getting anywhere. Jean rubs his temples, trying to think of what to say. Yeah, he gets it. Eren probably feels like Mikasa's drifting away from him. That's how Jean would feel if he was in the same situation. It doesn't make things easier to know that both Mikasa AND Eren are hurting. Armin as well, so the whole trio was a big mess as of now.

What would Levi even do in a situation like this? Jean unconsciously thinks that. Maybe the captain would be as terrible as Jean was handling this, but at least he'd probably be in better state of mind than any of the teens. Even Jean had his problems, after all, he just kept ignoring them.

Jean has let his Sensory Livestreaming drop when he finally replies.]

It's not what she wants. Even if she isn't telling you everything, the fact that you're family doesn't change. The fact is, it's because you are her family that she's hiding things. So stop being such a brat and realize it already! She's doing this because she cares.

[It pains him to admit that so many times, but there's nothing else he can say. It's a fact that Mikasa cares and loves Eren, after all. No matter how much it hurts, he will continue telling Eren that.]

She'd rather talk about other things with you than the future with me anyway.

[There is no response.]

[Jean sighs after waiting for long enough for a reply.]

Fine. Suit yourself.

JUST LEAVE ME ALONE!

[Eren returned to streaming his voice, although it's hard to tell whether he sent that on purpose or by accident. His voice is rough and broken, breath hitching in sobs he seemed to be desperately trying to repress but miserably failing to do so despite his efforts. It only lasts for a second or two before he seems to realize what he's done and breaks the stream again, but it was enough to make his current state perfectly clear. This was not Eren being an angry, stubborn brat about things. This was Eren breaking.]

[Oh. Oh.

Yeah, it's best if Jean didn't say anything and left Eren on his own. Jean's not the best in damage control for these kind of situations when it comes to Eren. It this was Mikasa breaking down, he'd know what to do. But with Eren... no chance.

He does feel bad though.]

Jean, at least make the damn conversation private before half of liminal space wants to kill you both. [Really, them actually being murdered for this might be more of a concern than either of them realizes, considering some of the Travelers around.]

[... okay that's embarrassing. Jean feels stupid for letting his feelings get a better of him again. Damn it, Eren.]

S-Sorry... I'll turn it into a private one. ... thanks.

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