backdated to the day after the shift from clonetemple mountain to basketballroom

[thornsofmalkav]

Guys! Guys, there's a Titan here! I think it's a Titan? He's huge and naked and hanging crepe paper from the chandelier and I don't think he's noticed me yet.

I'm gonna try to fly up and stab him. Survey dudes, please give me back-up, he's fucking terrifying.

[OOC: Anyone who wants can handwave seeing Eren in Titan shifted form trying to help decorate the basket ballroom. Or even doing his shift. Sadly, Thorne missed the shift happening which is why this.]

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[callyourname]

[Falling apart is not allowed! Never ever. She needs Eren and Armin (and Jean) and well, they need to go through everything she knows back home too... And everything that's going to happen there, they will to get through those too.]

... What if some things hurt so much, that they might be too hard to even talk about? [Maybe she'll just never tell... She hugs him tightly again.]

So what am I if she's your sister? [At least her tone isn't the most serious here but oh my god, Mikasa, don't get jealous over that. But dead serious on the real topic here.] Well, that depends on her, doesn't it?

[neverfeltthatway]

[He takes a deep breath.] We've seen what happens when we don't talk about it. Eren has trouble handling it, and... I can't deny I want to know, after some of the things you said.

I'll trust your judgement. If you think it's better not to tell us, that's your choice. But it's... I meant what I said. We'll figure it out together, whatever happens. But keeping secrets isn't going to make it easy. [His voice becomes slightly strained at that - over his own secrets, not Mikasa's, though she has no way of knowing that.]

If it's truly too painful to talk about, but you want us to know... you don't have to talk. We could share the memories directly.

[His grip tightens around her, and in spite of her levity he speaks with the utmost solemnity.] She's my sister, but you're my heart, Mikasa, you and Eren. Always.

She won't hurt him. They like each other. She just didn't realize it was him, and after what I'd told her about our childhood... [He sighs.] I told her too much, or not enough. It was my fault, Mikasa. But she won't do it again, now that she knows it's him.

She just wanted to protect everyone from the titans. You can't blame her for that.

[callyourname]

[Her turn to take a deep breath.] ...I didn't say this was easy or that I want to keep secrets from you. It's ...complicated. [She wants to tell but on the other hand she really doesn't want to tell.]

But I think that's definitely more than enough for Eren today and when -- or if, I ever tell, you both get to hear it all at the same time. [The last thing she wants is Eren being the only one, who doesn't know.]

... Yeah, I think I'd go with memory sharing. [for most of it. As .... ironic as it would be everything considered.]

[The heart comment surprises her even if it really shouldn't but after feeling like she's slipping away from Eren and Armin, that is amazing to hear. Might even make her blush a little while she cuddles a little closer and tightens her grip too. But she has no idea what to say to that?? That's stupid. She should say something! Well the feeling is mutual at least, so Armin could read it from the tiny gestures if he had to.]

You two will always be the most important to me too.

[Even if Eren is always her priority number one and even though she's letting Jean get closer and closer too. Doesn't mean she wouldn't do anything for all of them.]

...Many people like him... [Eren makes it so easy!] and still try to take him away for --- whatever reason they happen to have. And if they say they are sorry for it or get hurt during it, he just always --[She swallows. No, she's not as okay with just a 'sorry' as others seem to be and yeah, that was more about situations back home than here.] But if you're sure that she won't do it again, then that's good... It's not your fault.

[Speaking of saying sorry? Hope no one expects it from Mikasa about this whole Thorne situation because she sure as hell isn't sorry at all for doing anything for Eren.]

No, but rushing recklessly at one isn't how it works. Nor is calling me a back up or thinking I wouldn't kill any dangerous titan [or any other shifter than Eren!] as soon as I see them, that's fucked up or just a great way to fuck things up.

[That's like a goldmine on some things that make her angry, apparently, with a mix of a lot of other feelings too. Sorry for hitting there, Armin, welcome to she's a huge mess of feelings right now. And now it sounds like she's bragging when she's just being very damn overprotective. She can kill them, no need to put others in danger -- especially if they're not from their world even.]

[neverfeltthatway]

I didn't mean to say that you wanted to keep secrets. I'm just saying that if you think it's necessary, no matter how much it hurts... I understand, and I trust you. Whether you want to keep it a secret, or tell us, or have me help you share the memory - whatever you think is best.

[He shakes his head again.] I know, 'kasa. But she wasn't thinking straight - all she knew about titans was what they looked like and that they eat people. I think she just panicked, and wanted to protect everyone. I'm not saying it was the right reaction - but she never trained for this like we did, and we both know people who did train for it who lost their heads the first time they saw a titan. [Including Eren, really.] So try not to be too hard on her, okay? It's a mistake a lot of people make, and one she won't make again.